I Wish You Could See

I wish you could see what you mean to me
I wish you could see what my heart has given
I wish you could see how I’d make you feel
I wish you could see the queen you would be

I knew you better than anyone else
All your dreams you shared fully with me
All your fears you couldn’t hide from my view
All your secrets you confided only with me

I saw you blossom into a new woman
I saw you change right before my eyes
Your highs and your lows I helped you get through
I saw in you what you couldn’t see

I knew your pains because they once were mine
I knew your soul better than you knew yourself
For I saw in you what you couldn’t believe
I saw the goddess I knew that you were

I knew how to make you feel special
I knew how to avoid your sensitive spots
I knew how to help you take risks
I knew how to bring out the goddess in you

No one knew how to love you like me
No one made you feel safe like I did
No one could be the haven for your soul
No one withstood your ebbs and your flows

I still loved you when you ran and hid
I could see right through the charade you put up
I waited and waited and anchored you up
I made you laugh like nobody could

I knew your words before you could say them
I could make you happy or sad at the drop of a hat
I could guide your anger, excitement, and fear
I could embrace your quirky emotions

After all that, couldn’t you see?
Couldn’t you see what I’d offer you?
Couldn’t you see how I made you feel?
Couldn’t you see who you were around me?

Why’d you give your heart to another
When your whole soul you shared with me?
Why’d you give your lips to someone
Who couldn’t see what I saw in you?

How could you surrender to a man
Who couldn’t blossom your wild energy?
How could you feel safe with him
Who couldn’t see the goddess in you?

My heart is broken for what might have been
I thought you could see what I could see
I’m sorry I couldn’t help you to see
The goddess you’d be if in my arms you were

–Jason Westlake
Thurs, Jan 3, 2008

At the Altar

Dressed in white across the altar she stands
I pinch myself to see if she’s real
How’d I fool her to say yes to me?
How’d I become the man she deserves?

Time winds to a halt as I connect with her eyes
The days of my youth flash in my mind
I remember the nights of crying in bed
Shedding tears of hope and tears of sorrow

Hope for the day when I’d meet my wife
Sorrow for doubting if she would come
Hope in a divine relationship
Sorrow for wondering if I’d be worthy

My hope for this imaginary day
Was all that kept me going at times
Knowing my queen was waiting for me
I still moved forward when I couldn’t see

Then the future replaces the past in my mind
Old and wrinkly we look through our scrapbooks
We pass by the day our first child was born
We remember when only she kept me going

We remember when we chose to be faithful
There were the times when we wanted to quit
But we believed in each other and always pulled through
Together we gave our souls to the world

We took each other where we couldn’t alone
There were tears of laughter and tears of frustration
Moments of ecstasy and moments of pain
We grew together because it was our commitment

We dedicated our lives together
We triumphed and failed together
Our lives were woven and made for each other
We can’t imagine if we’d never have met

Our love has changed us in ways we couldn’t see
Back when our marriage began
All the way back to the beginning
Back to this day as we’re saying our vows

The past and the future are present with me
Helping me cherish this moment
I breathe, and the second hand begins anew
We complete our vows and walk out of the church