How could I ever trust love again
When I’ve been so badly burned before?
How could I ever surrender my heart
When pain is all I’ve received in return?
I’d like to offer my heart to the world
I’d like to open the depths of my soul
I’d like for my love to be fully received
I’d like for myself to be understood
But I have my cannons ready to fire
The moment I open my drawbridge
Experience gone past has taught me well
Their white flag was always an ambush
I wish I wasn’t so trigger-happy
I wish my fortress wasn’t so strong
It was built while I wasn’t looking
When blinded by approval I was
While longing for love I still am today
Knowing it’s outside my fortress
But the judgment and attacks I’ve received
Have outweighed my desire for love
The risk of loving was too great in the past
I can still feel the scars on my heart
All I know is my fortress is lonely
And I must open my drawbridge again
Except that would mean I’d have to return
Back to my deepest hell to be whole
I just don’t know if I can open my heart
When it still remains wounded quite badly
But against my will, I open my heart
The tightness causes the vessels to rip
My blood and my life spews freely out
Sacrificed my heart lies on the ground
I walk over the moat and out of my fortress
Their white flags still lie on the ground
With many, the embraces come quite easily
While other still remain quite distant
Whether some accept me or others do not
While some attack me and others adore me
To me, either way I could care less
For I opened my heart and in love I trusted
For what real is cannot be threatened
And love is the only real thing there is
The attacks and the judgments now can’t hurt me
Because I now realize love is my source
Jason Westlake
Fri, Mar 14, 2008
