I’m so sorry. I really didn’t mean it
I felt overpowered, like I had no choice
It’s not who I am or who I want to be
Please forgive me. I intend to come back
Help me break free from these destructive habits
In times of weakness, I revert back to them
They gnaw away and take pieces from my soul
I feel the power to change. I just need help
I am strong most of the time, but when I’m not
Can you be there for me to carry me through?
I’m tired of returning to my vomit
I’m ready and willing, I can believe now
I didn’t use to, but I always wanted to
I can be strong, if you provide your support
Help me remember and recall my purpose
Help me take action when I want to give in
Christen me with robes of courage and virtue
Bless me with the faith to take that first step
I know I’ve compromised myself in the past
But I’m now shedding my shadow from before
Thanks for your mercy and for understanding
Thanks for the forgiveness and the acceptance
For I know that being open and willing
Is the first step back towards returning to you
–Jason Westlake
Mon., October 30, 2006
